Hung over.

Days are passing real fast, time seems to be the best healing for my wound in my heart. With all my friends, I'm able to keep myself from thinking back all the memories that I once had with her. Break ups are tough, but I cant afford to let one girl, affect my dreams... So I decided to just put aside all these shits and focus on my studies =] Gonna work my way to my dreams! Gonna live my life to the max from now on =]

Sleepless night...

Now, after a sudden change, life seems harder already. Since the day you left me, I cant seem to sleep at all, all I can think about is only you... I tear up not just emotionally but physically. I miss all the times that we've shared, all the memories that we had.But all was concluded to one thing, I was only just a replacement for her ex.... Oh god! How I need you!!! I love her so much yet she could just leave me like this! I'm really down and depress. I want you back so badly! so close yet so far! during my darkest hours, all I need is just to talk to you and everything will just brighten up. but now, you're just a shadow in my memory... FUCK IT! I hate this! Its so hard just to move on! I miss you so much, I miss you!!! Why does it have to be this way?!

hmmmm.....

Its kinda funny to think about it that I'll actually revisit my own old blog. Its been dead like almost a year! lol...

Well, life has been real wonderful to me, everything seems to be so perfect... I still remember on the tenth of april, the most wonderful thing had happened to me. The day where a new relationship has been born between two souls on this world. =] If you know me well, you'll know who I'm talking about =]. Everything about her is just perfect! The way she dress, the way she talk, the way she moves, the way she Love. I just cant seems to get enough of her, all I think about is only her. In the art I do, the music I composed, the everything that I do just reminds me of her. =] It only makes me wanna protect her, to provide her happiness, and nevertheless, to Love her unconditionally.

There are just no words to use to describe her, all I see its only the positive side of her even there's flaws. Cause its that flaws and perfectness make her different from others, make her so unique that no one else on earth could replace her. Yes, I Love her loads, more than anyone can imagine. There's only one word for her, undescribable =].

It all started from a simple text "hey"... and from there, miracle started to take place by its own. Then we started to talk on phone. How I miss those late night calls where we could easily talk till 4am =] Then wake up the next morning greeting each other with sweet and lovely mornings =]. I still remember how me and her are able to talk about almost anything everything. Sharing our secrets with each other and going through sad times together =]. Went to hike up youthpark almost everyday, then went to botanical garden to enjoy the natural environment, those beautiful flowers and water lilies =]. Those days are real awesome dont you think? =] How we love each other so much, need each other so much and even care about each other so much. From there, I knew, this is the girl that I' gonna marry and to spend the rest of my life with =]. If you are the one I'm talking about, I Love You babey =].

Well this is the most wonderful girl that I've ever met, ask me anything about her, and I just cant stop talking about her, adoring her, praising the beauty inside her =] And babey, if you're reading this, I still haven told you when was the time that I really fell deeply in love with you. Still remember the second time we went to the number 5? the top there? where I brought you to the secret place? It was that time, when you stood there at the highest rock while I was sitting, and I saw the kind of light, not the sun but you, shining in front of me, the time when you were enjoying the freedom at the top of the rock and looking at the beautiful view that we can see over there =] I still remember we spent our time there, listening to music, relaxing together over there, talking, joking and also spending our time there meaningfully. From there, I fell deeply in love with you and know that you're the one for me =]

Oh well, this is all I wanna talk about now, this is a place where I can recall all my memory and keep myself happy =] And thats how wonderful my life had turned to =]